heart talks

September 10th, 2008

a heart’s short midnite conversation…

“why am i attracted to a person i know isn’t good?”

“because you’re hoping you’re wrong and every time they do something that tells you they’re not good you ignore it and every time they come through and surprise you the win you over and you lose that argument with yourself that they’re not for you. they say love is blind. no. love makes you blind to all that is wrong with the relationship. it’s not your fault and in a way it’s not their fault either, it just is”

“then why we all hang onto something we know we’re better off letting go?”

“that’s the battle of head versus heart, and it’s excruciating. which is the right one to follow? the head which is trying to protect your heart? or your heart, your heart that is falling hopelessly, leading you into a dead end, walking you head first into a brick wall? it’s just like we’re scared to lose what we don’t really have. some of us say we’d rather have thet something than nothing but the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all. it all depends on you. but you’ll never find the right one, if you’re still holding onto the wrong one”

“i think i had to learn the hard way that some people walk into our lives and physically walk out… but they never really leave. well, the tears stopped. the pain, however, remains constant”

“in life or love pain must be felt. there’s no alternative. but that pain is accompainied by something else… hope. take chances, take a lot of them. because no matter when you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. be you and be okay with it…”